Thursday, April 1, 2010

Blogging from A to Z: Today's letter...A for Avoidance

For my first blog in the Blogging from A to Z challenge, I decided to do a post on avoidance. We avoid things daily, whether it's for our physical safety or for our emotional safety. The former makes sense, if you believe in survival; the latter is the more interesting one to me. I can be outgoing in certain situations, but there is one thing that I avoid like a plague and that's relationships. I think I may have a disorder or something because I cannot get myself to open up and express myself, for fear of rejection. It is a terrible habit, one that I would like to rid myself of. I know that I have missed many opportunities; I may have let a soul mate slip out of my reach and that really scares me. I think that I immerse myself in school because of my avoidance issues. With school, I have control over the outcome, for the most apart. If I want an 'A' then I put in the work to get it. Yes, I stay in school because the career I want requires certain degrees and certification, but I wonder if I get a slight bit of relief that I don't have time to put myself out there, you know, in the dating scene. I hear it's real rough out there and I'm often glad that I don't have the horror stories that others have. But, I also know I'm missing out; how do I expect to get married and start a family with a man I love, and who loves me back, if I don't get out there and meet him? I have to make a change and because avoidance is getting me nowhere.

I have to thank fellow blogger, arlee of the blog tossing it out, for starting this Blogging from A to Z challenge. I think it's going to be fun! If you want information on the challenge, click the logo, featuring Uncle Sam, to your right.

2 comments:

  1. I'm glad you're in. I will mention you in my site tomorrow (Monday 4/5) to encourage more folks to come and read your fine writing.
    And as far as avoidance, maybe you're just being careful. With school you're on a mission and it is important. You don't want to just go through a succession of guys that don't respect the real you and just want to take advantage. You deserve better than that. And you are methodical.
    Lee

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  2. Hi Lee,

    That is possible; I'm fairly cautious on a lot of things, especially with my feelings. Not looking to get hurt; however, I worry that in my effort to keep from being hurt, I'm missing out. I may have to just throw myself out there and see what happens!

    bc

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